IN MEMORY OF
miscarried June 2nd, 2004.
I'm sorry for so much. I didn't know what I wanted. I was scared, for me and for you. I knew I couldn't give you the family that I so badly wanted for you. I didn't want you put you through life with J. I couldn't imagine what he would do. I tried not to think about you. Then when everything happened, and I didn't have you, you were all that I wanted.
I feel guilty for everything. If I had wanted you more, or not been scared, then maybe things would have been different.
If everything happens for a reason, maybe you were supposed to teach me something. I'm going to try to figure out what I really want out of life. So next time, if I ever get pregnant again, I will be okay. I'm sorry it took so long to learn, but thank you for the lesson.
I think about you all the time, and I want you to know that you were loved. Even when I was scared and unsure about you, I loved you more than I knew. I'm so afraid that you never knew that I loved you...